Philippians 1:6

Upon conversion I remember blogging "I tried to run away from God but He refused to let me go." Looking back, no matter how hard I struggled to get rid of this Christianity thing, by grace, sanctification has not looked any different. 

It's been a little over 5 years now.

The Bent Towards Licentiousness

I've never been so inclined as I am today to be bent towards licentiousness. Legalism has always been far easier and safe ... To condemn others as less than me ... The licentious response is no different in essence but only externally ... to break commandments to show off how "not under the law I am anymore" ... to intentionally rub against and mock the legalist for being such a Pharisee ... The legalist and licentious guy are both the pharisee ... wicked and deserving of wrath despite how many bible verses he/she can memorize or how many of them are tattoo'd on their bodies ... And right now I cannot deny my heart's bitterness at Christian-ese, the culture, the people, people like me ... but in the midst of the looming tension which I've had a difficult time for the past year trying to reconcile in everyone else, God's showing me that He was preparing and teaching me then, not necessarily just them. What kills the sin (pride) in both? The bloody cross of Christ.

What a powerful God He is that even his very whispers quake our souls.