Just watched a sermon off a friend's facebook wall and coupled with a ton of other factors, I feel God's been so gracious to remind me that He doesn't need me. Ha.
I find my mind wondering how "effectiveness" of ministry can make me look to others. If I preach well enough, with enough humor, with enough biblical insight, then maybe the kids will really love and praise me ... maybe my peers might respect me ... maybe my parents will be proud of me.
They warn you when you are trying to discern your calling to ministry "Don't enter in if you can help it." Because behind all the social media that inspire me to want to be something (or someone) "important," is the reality that aspiring to this office might just get me more God and question my soul if that's enough.
More than a stage, a blog, a tweet can say, what I most need to remember is that my main job as a "pastor" (I still feel uncomfortable being called that) is to invest for the long haul in equipping the church family to do the work of the ministry (Eph. 4:12). May this understanding free me up to love these kids and this church instead of looking for love from them.
New to this "shepherding" thing,
-Jon
*edit*
As pointed out by someone in class about two weeks ago, my main "job" as a pastor is to walk with the LORD*. Oh ya ...
