Chapter closing (Initial Thoughts)

Bittersweet sums it up well. I knew the day was coming where college would end and the adult world would be the new chapter for my life.

So here I am with a lot of questions, uncertainties, things I wish I would've done with my time here, etc.

But here I am ... feeling unready and unprepared for a world I'm unfamiliar with.

Is this it? I feel I owe to myself a big praise/cry out to God post about AFC and the 4.5 years here. Maybe some other time.

I find my need for the gospel to be even deeper than I thought. My pride is stubborn. But I know He never lets go and I know He will not let me grow up to be a "spiritual brat" as Pastor Kyle says. He's for me.

My prayer since day 1 of college has been that I would get more God. He has been faithful, sometimes with much pain attached, but that's my prayer once again. Nothing less Father, give me more of Yourself. Help me want more than I do. You're so good yet my heart is prone to chase creation over You. Help me. Thanks for being good, even when I am not. Thanks for being patient with me ... for letting me know that You know exactly where I am, where I've been and You don't run away and leave me alone. Thank You for the gospel of Jesus. My sin runs deep but still You love me. Help me believe that.

So Happy

I am so happy for my brother Chris. I didn't think I could be this happy for him and I wont even try to articulate why. Just so happy for him and esther.

God, our Father, knows what is BEST for His children and will spare us even good things for our good and His glory. I pray that I'd eat up that truth and allow myself to truth it.

Congratz bro.