Blessed

So immensely blessed by Joey/Deb's wedding.

I don't even know that I asked for it, nor looked for it, but God showed me a clear picture of the gospel this weekend in them that left me a bit undone and full of joy and celebration. I can't believe that God delights in us. There's so much of me that knows what I ought to be rendered but was shown that instead of justice, God pursues his wayward, adulterous bride. Messy as we are, Christ came and died for sinners.

So beautiful was their wedding. Perhaps some day, so beautiful will be mine. For certain one day, so beautiful will be the church's. Jesus come.

Great weekend.

Really grateful to have experienced such fun and joy with my AFC fam in Waco and my CBC fam in the H this weekend. Even though it was only a day, before bed on Friday, I found myself smiling just thinking about how much I didn't realize I missed yawl. Cant wait to visit again soon. And coming back Saturday, I realized how gracious God is for giving me a home church like CBC. As much as I wanted to prove myself coming out of graduation as this confident, strong guy that knew what he was doing, God's humbled me and given me an imperfect but great community instead.

Post-grad life has not been easy by any stretch. It's been one of the hardest seasons of my life so far (and no that's not every season of life lol). Idolatry and identity issues have been exposed. The sense of fighting to prove myself has been confronted. And learning what exactly "waiting on God" means is still a process. Not gonna lie, it's been frustrating a lot of the time. It still is. But I've never felt God's pursuing and sanctifying me as a childish son so strongly in any other season of life.

I'm still unemployed. Still not knowing how exactly to respond to life update questions. But it's all good.

Pray that I'd get to work freal though and "just do something."
-Jon