PostGrad Thought #3

Note to self, God's just as good to you when you don't have a job and when you do get one. Don't praise Him only when you get what you want.

Thanks Father for this season of life you have me in. It's definitely not what I expected but I've felt you pursuing and shaping me more than any other season. I have doubts and questions still. I sometimes believe the lies that tell me my identity is based upon my employment or relationship status. I sometimes revert back to elevating my hobbies and gifts to be my basis of "being somebody." But You've been here to always pull me back. In the end, just help me understand more and more clearly the message of the scriptures. Let them correct the way I see things. Let them push me deep.

And to be honest, help me care more than I do. Through so much inner turmoil with my identity and lack of employment, it's been hard to care for others, much less notice them and their needs. You're exposing that in me and I ask that you help me get back to seeing myself as nothing more or less than a servant. Lower my opinion of myself. Help me see how I can love and serve the body.

I know so many friends that are hurting and can't really approach them about it as I would like. Help them know that You're not far. Help them know You've been there the whole time ... if only they'd repent and trust You again. Do that work in their hearts Holy Spirit. Show them the freedom found only in the message of the cross.

Heh.

"The good, bad, ugly, Lord use it. I just want You to be glorified through it."
-Andy Mineo

That's a prayer of mine for this season of my life. Can't make sense of it all. Lord use it anyway for the glory of Your name.

Post-Grad Random Transition Post #13432 (or #1?)

You know a hymn is good when you're not even a fan of the music you've heard it sung to lol:

"All I Once Held Dear, Built My Life Upon
All This World Reveres And Wars To Own
All I Once Thought Gain I Have Counted Loss
Spent And Worthless Now Compared To This

Knowing You, Jesus, Knowing You
There Is No Greater Thing
You're My All, You're The Best
You're My Joy, My Righteousness
And I Love You Lord"

[Somewhere in this sanctifying walk with Jesus, I've slowly started to find out the painful freedom of Jesus' command to lose your life in order to save it. It's so true that the call to discipleship with Jesus is a call to die. Yet, in so doing, we find life much more full than we could have ever fathomed before. God is for us indeed.]

God, I want that Philippians 3 message in my heart and soul and mind. I just can't let go of some things. Help me. I want more of You. Help me want more.