The cure ... from then to now till His returning.

The more I realize how much of a work in progress I am, the more I'm comforted by scripture in knowing that I'm growing.

The more I realize that I'm not as good as I want to be, that I'm not as mature as I think I am, that I'm not as holy as I should be, the more I realize that I haven't arrived yet ... That I need Jesus just as much as "this guy" or "that girl" the more I'm comforted at the end of the day that I'm making progress, that He's still not letting go. I'm beginning to distrust my own mind and heart and it's funny because theologically I knew this is what I was supposed to pursue ... correction by the word of Christ ... Yet I rather like my ideas and opinions. I love giving my suggestions. But in the end, they're not at all that impressive ... even if they can fool a few. God, you see right through me. Jesus you expose me. I don't like it most of the time. Matter of fact I often hate that about You if I'm honest, but right now, I thank You ... That You will not compromise Your glory, that You refuse to make your cross dispensable. I need it. My eyes have wandered into foolish pursuits. Keep me standing in this good deposit entrusted. I need your help to correct my thinking, my opinions, my ambitions, my heart. Purify it. This pride is too rampant and You're the only one able to cure this.

Jesus, you have won me over. You were the remedy and You are the remedy. Be my goal till I die and and we see face to face.

-Been going through the sermon on the mount and stumbled upon this cross reference while reading Matthew 5:8 ("Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God."):

[The River of Life]
"Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb through the middle of the street of the city; also, on either side of the river, the tree of life with its twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit each month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. No longer will there be anything accursed, but the throne of God and of the Lamb will be in it, and his servants will worship him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. And night will be no more. They will need no light of lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light, and they will reign forever and ever."
-Revelation 22:1-5

Beautiful. Can't wait. Oh the implications for ... now. Time to get to work.