Push me out there Father. Joy's at stake.

I haven't much doubted that God's actively directing the next steps for me. I just have trouble being okay with each step ... haha.

It's been a month since I first left for China to help advance the gospel among the people there. Life has changed a ton since then and I'm still trying to figure out what God taught me there. I'm still trying to apply what I know He's already taught me.

There's much work to be done. Many people whom God's calling me to invest in that I'd prefer not to. There's much more sharing of the gospel to do, much more love to share, much more Christ to be had.

Oh God, we're messy. Thank You for the cross of Jesus. No turning back. Help me with my unbelief. Push me out there for the sake of Your name.