What day is it?

So I just got back from "REC Week '09." It's an InterVarsity (various colleges participate in it) equipping conference/retreat type deal. It was quite the experience. It was everything I kinda thought it would be but not really ... all at the same time.

I'm too confused to even begin to try to put my thoughts into words.

It was really such a worshipful week. So much happened. So much. So much confusion ... laughter, thinking, rethinking, questioning, brokenness, more laughing, planning, humiliation, joy, etc. Praise God.

Next year will be very challenging for me. It's one thing to do something you believe in but it's another to trust that even if you don't agree with some or a lot of things, that nothing is outside of God. That's how I feel about my fellowship group called "AFC" (Asians for Christ).

-Shout out to all those of AFC who went to REC Week '09. I've really grown to love each and every one of these people as family. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to find a community like this apart from home back in Houston but God really has been gracious. Each of the 19 (I think it's 19) that went I truly love and hope to continue to do life with. Speakin just for my brothers out there, praise God for brotherhood.

As for now I'm focusing more on the next 3 months. I know God's going to really test me, challenge me, break me, and humble me more. I feel like I got a healthy dose of that last week but knowing how faithful and sovereign God is, I know it'll only be more of this, and perhaps up to another degree. Whether that be with summer school, a job, ferociously and relentlessly studying the Word more, helping out with CBC, missions, being more active and missional with my choices, or whatever, I am almost certain God is going to keep invading this heart that wants to cling to created things or people rather than the Creator Himself. Jesus is going after my whole heart and he's taking it a little more each day. I thank Him for it. Not sure if that sounds right but this is my 2am, extremely exhausted mind typing this.

I've never been so emotional and physically fatigued to this degree. My rhythm is so throw off that I've almost woken up everyday this past week not knowing what day it was. My head has been pounding today. My emotions are confused. My body is weak (I was so slow playing ball today). But my soul still has peace. I am so disgustingly bad. But God is so beautifully good. Hallelujah.
-Jon